My Heart And Other Black Holes | Book Review

My Heart And Other Black Holes by Jasmine Warga

Publication: February 10, 2015 by HarperCollins / Blazer + Bray

Summary:

Sixteen-year-old physics nerd Aysel is obsessed with plotting her own death. With a mother who can barely look at her without wincing, classmates who whisper behind her back, and a father whose violent crime rocked her small town, Aysel is ready to turn her potential energy into nothingness.

There’s only one problem: she’s not sure she has the courage to do it alone. But once she discovers a website with a section called Suicide Partners, Aysel’s convinced she’s found her solution: a teen boy with the username FrozenRobot (aka Roman) who’s haunted by a family tragedy is looking for a partner.

Even though Aysel and Roman have nothing in common, they slowly start to fill in each other’s broken lives. But as their suicide pact becomes more concrete, Aysel begins to question whether she really wants to go through with it. Ultimately, she must choose between wanting to die or trying to convince Roman to live so they can discover the potential of their energy together. Except that Roman may not be so easy to convince.

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My Thoughts:

Where do I start? This book is beyond perfection. It’s so dark, but there’s also some light. If you know what I mean.

Plot:

“Depression is like a heaviness that you can’t ever escape. It crushes down on you, making even the smallest things like tying your shoes or chewing on toast seem like a twenty-mile hike uphill. Depression is a part of you; it’s in your bones and your blood.”

The plot of this book was simply beautiful. Every page in the novel stuck to me, it had so much meaning behind every word. The novel was dark and depressing, but also very funny and clever. The story was sometimes hard to read, not because it was bad, but because it was so sad. My emotions were everywhere when I read this book, I wanted to hug all the characters that were hurting and tell them that everything is going to be all right and don’t blame themselves for living. The message throughout the novel is so meaningful. Warga took a illness and turned it into a novel that shows that the illness can be treated with love and care.

Characters:

“You know, Zellie, there are enough broken things in the world. You shouldn’t go around breaking things just for the fun of it.”

The two main protagonists in the novel were so bitter, but Warga made them both likable.

Aysel is a character who is struggling with herself. She is battling depression in the result of a public tragedy that befell her family. Her father committed a crime and because of that she carries a burden of guilt of the incident. Aysel being like most people, keeps all her emotions to herself and suffers in silence without, ever letting anyone in. Throughout the novel she discovers who she is, what she loves, what she wants to do in the future. Instead of trying to end all her misery, she fights them. She also tries to help out a friend.

“He’s no longer the person I want to die with; he’s the person I want to be alive with.”

FrozenRobot aka Roman is a character that is similar to Aysel. He’s simply looking for a way to end his life. Roman is a year older than Aysel. He loves to play basketball and according to his classmates he’s great at it, but he stopped because of an incident that occurred. During the whole novel I just wanted to dive into the book and hug him.

Writing:

I liked the writing style of the book. It was put in days until Aysel and Roman decide to…. you know…

OTP:

I know this book is deep and dark, but seriously…

“He’s no longer the person I want to die with; he’s the person I want to be alive with.”

Aysel + Roman are MADE for each other. They feel each other, they know each other, they balance each other.

Overall:

*SPOILER* This book did end weirdly because Aysel just basically overcame her depression and started living life. I would’ve liked it if Warga talked more about Aysel in the ending, but that’s alright because this book is beyond wonderful, it sent out so many great messages and inspires you to look for help, ask for help, and help.

Rate:

stars


What do you think of the book? Agree or Disagree? Let me know!

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